Weekend

Well this weekend was ok. I wish I would have cleaned up more and gotten more sleep. Life is so crazy and unpredictable sometimes and I'm glad that I have Jesus in my life. I'm in the process of trying to get in contact with Kenneth(My Dad). I have called his sister and am waiting for her to call me back soon. These past few weeks I have been thinking about him and it has been weighing on my heart to get in touch with him. There are a lot of things that I want to say and questions I want to ask like why did he never stay in contact or why he didn't contact me when my grandmother died(Big Moma). I feel as though it is time for me to resolve this and get a lot off my chest that has been there for years. The last time I talked to him was back in 2001 when I was a freshman in college. There is a reason I never went by his house after fall of 2000. See I use to go visit during the holidays just to say hi. Well christmas 2000 I went by his house to visit like he had told me to over thanksgiving break. I knocked on the door and then heard footsteps, then nothing. I was like I know I just heard him walking towards the door why won'the answer it. At that moment I was hurt, confused and upset all at the same time. I vowed not to go by there again if he didn't want to really see me. After that I saw him for like 3mins when I was leaving my grandma's house. I would have said something then but it was my grandma's birthday and I didn't want to go off. I am finding peace over the whole situation and for my peace to be complete I have to talk to him personally. Pray for me!!